Best! (and worst...) of 2013

People magazine, along with various other blogs, tv shows, etc., are in end of the year mode- as it is very soon. So I, Yab, have compiled a list of my worst and best of 2013. This will include my life, and blog, as well as popular culture in the united states of america.

Best
Hands down winner of 2013's best: J. Law.
I just love you.

 

 

Orange is the New Black
I waited to long to do a post about how amazing this show is. If you haven't seen it, go. watch. now. Netflix. GO.

Haim
I love girl rock. I love girls that rock. I love Haim. Meeting them was a 2013 highlight. Fo sho.

 

being sober
I made it to 1 whole year, I'd say that's agoing on the best list.

meeting new people
I made a lot more friends in 2013 than 2012, considering I lived under a rock. So ya, I'd say that's a major improvement.

three trips to burlington
who doesn't love getting to the dirty, yet still very environmentally clean, b-town.

*always* glitter.

Cronut
the most coveted and majestic of all breakfast foods

Lorde- specifically her 2013 hit Royals.

Blurred Lines and Robin Thicke
Robin Thicke had an incredible year, from blurred lines, to letting miley grind all up on him.

JT.
the comeback.

Porkbelly
I personally, I discovered this holy food this year (which is weird because my dad's a chef and he definitely didn't discover it this year) but since my discovery I have been seeing it everywhere. It's bacon, but better.

Pork belly doughnut. 0_o

 

Pretzel Bread.
I first had pretzel bread when I was like 12 but it was not widely available. Now, DD to Wendy's to WAWA! has this salty, soft beautiful delight.

Breaking Bad Series Finale/ Aaron Paul
Everyone was jumping out of their seats for this one. I still haven't watched it yet SO SAY NOTHING.
Who doesn't love Aaron Paul, Bitch.

 

 

Macklemore and Ryan Lewis
kiiiilled it this year and will be ringing in the new year in times square with the ball dropping. It is true, you can't hold them, they going up, UP, UP!

Also meeting Macklemore and having to stop myself from crying was a highlight of the year as well.

 

Tahoe
Everyone and their boyfriend moved to Tahoe this year.... and I'm in Philadelphia -_- #fml

*Tahoe pictures stolen from my vagabond best friend, reetzthepeetz. I WILL BE WITH YOU... EVENTUALLY!

worst
rihanna, miley cyrus
It saddens me to have to put the creator of the worlds greatest song (we found love... obviously) on a list with america's trashiest-heart (get it like sweet heart, but the polar opposite). Rihanna you have gotten trashier and trashier and you are now on my worst list. I am sorry.

trips to burlington. 
Sometimes/use to be, the best, now... mostly just the worst. Which makes it even more worse because THIS SHOULD NOT BE ON THE WORST LIST. However, we grow, we learn, we grow some more, people come and go, and so it is.

internet relationships. 
Please don't make me expand on this. Just know they are the worst, even if they seem like the best... no. GAB! NO! theyaretheworst.

Kim and Kanye
Any child of Kanye West is bound to be some level of fucked up. Sorry North, you poor little soul, but you did not get the best of both worlds. But hey! You will be rich as God, because your father is a God.... in his mind....

ew.

Trying to find a job.
whether you were a post-grad or looking for some part time business, looking for a job in 2013 blew

What does the fox say
this actually should be on the best list because it is hysterical but the fact that this actually got on the radio is the worst.

Justin Beiber.
You got so so bad and lost. Little beibs was the best ever, but this Justin... I just, I just... I don't understand! Hopefully Will Smith taking JB under his wing will help for the beibs 2014.

The deaths of 2013, particularly Nelson Mendela and Paul Walker
obviously the worst. So sad. Never forgotten.

James Francos Instagram
.... have you seen it? Selfies. So, many, selfies.

 

 

 

 

 

Over all...

2013 wasn't a horrible year. It wasn't even a bad year. It definitely wasn't a great year, but it was by far better than 2012. I am extremely hopefully for 2014. My horoscopes for 2014 look optimistic. I have already been given a bit of a clean slate to enter the new year and I am going to work off of that.

I wish you all peace and prosperity as we enter into 2014. Yabbers... o yabbers... you keep me young.

 

I hope this list prepared you to end this year and start the new one. I also hope you have your sequin tops and black dresses ready, I know I do. As the ball drops and the calendar flips a page, kiss your mister or misses and throw some glitterRrRrRrrrrr.

 

 

2013 Mashup

Dj Earworm releases a mash up of all the hits of the the year every december. It's usually my favorite song of the year.
Loves it

Bow Down Bitches.

In case you LIVE UNDER A ROCK, or are just not up on your pop culture, Queen B released a secret album this week.

It's ~flawless~.

I personally was not immediately taken back and left breathless by B, but this was before she was Mrs. Jay Z. Back in the day I though beyonce was cool and all, but I had no idea one day she would be reigning supreme. She really has come into her royal status.

This album, self titled Beyonce, is a visual album... SAO COOOL. And the videos are pretty awesome.
I got a iTunes gift card this holiday season and was like wtf am i gonna use this for and then BAM, I DAMN NEEDED IT.

My favs so far, mind you I first listened to/watched the album Wednesday (at a slumber party- which is probably happening all over the globe), are probably Drunk in Love and Flawless... but really they all are good.

There is a ton of artists ft. on the album, from Jay-Z, to Drake and Frank Ocean, all the way to Kelly and Michelle. Also in the videos there is guest appearances from even little miss Blue.

goddamn, Goddamn, GODDAMN!

Mayday: Quarter Life Crisis: Yet Again.

It's been almost one month since I have posted anything on my blog. The only place I like to write, ONE MONTH.

AND OH WHAT A MONTH ITS BEEN.

I have been looking everywhere for signals, guidance, signs from God, to tell me what the FUCK TO DO.

Yet, I haven't been using the tools I have gathered in my tool belt.

My life is a mess, but it's really not at the same time.

Let's break it down shall we...

School.... ya rather not talk about it... but I guess I have to....
This semester did not go well... Imagine the worst. And yup, that's it.
I could come up with a million excuses as to why this happened but it's inexcusable for me to not be doing well in school.
It was just to much for me and I cracked under pressure.
When I was a full time, live at school student, I did fabulous. I did, like, really well because I worked my ass off. I went to the library all the time, all hours of the day. Now, the library is more than a skip, hop and a jump away.
Being full time at life- working part time and commuting to school part time- did not do me well. My  priorities were in the wrong place.

What it comes down to is I just can't ask for help.

I also have anxiety that takes over and paralyzes me from moving forward.
Instead of just pushing through stressful times, I don't get out of bed and I come up with worst case scenarios and just let them happen. It's really is catastrophic to my life.

I've been yelled at by therapists and I realize I need to get honest.
I need to ask for help when I need it and I need to tell people what is going on and just accept their responses.


Ok what else is going on in my life....
well I am not working the steps... I should save this for my sober blog because if you're not sober you will probably not understand and I'm not going to sit here and go through what the steps are and how they help to improve your life. I will tell you this, I did the steps, and I need to do them again, and I will probably continue doing them until I die if I want to maintain a decent life.
I guess this a good time to debut my sober blog that I have been working on: Grounded By Glitter.











What it all comes down to, is, my Quarter life crisis. 
 this is not the first of these.

I have been saying this to everyone I've had to talk about with school and work and figuring out my life and I constantly get emotional. BUT THE THING THAT KILLS ME IS
I know I have a lot of potential. I feel every member of society has a grand amount of potential. Inside every tiny human is the physical and emotional power of 100 men. I really do believe one single person can make a difference and together we can move mountains.
For me however, reaching and tapping into my potential is so fucking difficult. There are so many things going on in my mind all the time I don't even know what to fucking do. So I end up sitting in my bed scared of life not SEIZING THE FUCKING DAY.

I am very excited about the new year because I have a lot of goals and expectations for myself.
I know I put too much pressure on myself but I need to right now.

I am extremely happy with myself and how far I have come but I can expect more from myself, and I will.

Luckily, I have friends, family, and professionals, that will help me figure out what to do with my life and let me keep in perspective that things could be much much worse.

SO I STAY. Grounded by glitter.

Thanks for saying thanks

[this is a belated post. ]

I love doing posts related to gratuity, as I believe it is very important, so Thanksgiving post are just the best.

Last night at dinner, I initiated for my family to go around the table and say three things we are grateful for. My favorite response was from my four year old cousin saying, in her sweet little voice, "I am grateful for everyone I see." Omg. I die.

I will now tell ya'll FIVE things I am grateful for, because I hold myself to a high standard.

1.) I am grateful for my family and friends.
My family does so much for me on a daily basis, I don't even know where to begin with that. Each member of my family, near or far, makes my life better by being there for me and helping me in anyway I ever need. My friends are simply an extension of my family, and are so special because we weren't born blood related. We had to find each other. I have been so blessed to have incredible friends that have been there for me more than I could have ever asked.

2.) My dogs.
I always say I grateful for my dogs. I just love them so much and they really are the sweetest things I have ever met. My dog Bevin has seen me through my ups and downs, and has been there as I have grown up. She is my best friend. And Jasper is a Babuh.


3.) My sobriety.
I still feel like I am very early on in my sobriety, but I feel like I have learned so much. I am so happy my life is in a managable place. I still have obstacles in my life. Life is not easy, but it's enjoyable and I feel like I can handle things.

4.) I honestly, am really grateful, for my clothes.
I have a shopping problem, yes. But I don't just have a closet and drawers. I have a collection. Each item has been hand picked by me and is an expression of myself. I love my clothes so much. #sorryimnotsorry

5.) My writing.
I don't think I am the worlds greatest writer by any means. But I love that I have a collection of posts, entries, stories, etc., etc. that I can look back and dwell on. Stories about my life, and that I've made up. I like being able to see how different my life was and how I viewed it.
Also every now and again, someone will tell me they really like something I wrote on my blog and that makes me really, really happy.

I am of course, to follow up on that, grateful for my yabbers. The people who read this shit that I write. Like I said, that's pretty cool.


I hope you ate a lot of turkey, and if not, then you stuffed your face with stuffing.

Now it's time to prepare for CHRISTMAS. W0oO00oO0o0o0o0o0o0o

and then New Year's, which is great BECAUSE THERE IS GLITTER LIKE EVERYWHERE!