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a couple weeks ago... or maybe it was a week... I don't know, nor do I give a flying fuck- I said that I don't really know what I'm doing with my life. Refer to this post.

And ya know, I thought "oh I'm just whining, I'm not really going to do anything about this, just a usual yab post......" NOPE.

So I decided to switch my major. You might think that this is sorta stupid to do as I'm 22 ( I fucking think it is) but it's really not.
Sophomore year of my college career, at Champlain college, I took my fall semester off- actually I took 3 online course that I, YOU GUESSED IT, failed. I just didn't do them... NOPE.
Then summer '11 I took summer classes so I guess I was a full on sophomore at that point.
And then my junior at Champlain was, well... it was not existent.
I took the whole year off then I moved home and started going to Temple University in fall of '12. So I'm a... I don't fucking know a full on junior? Maybe? NOPE.
Credits get transfered in as electives or not at all.

So now I have the bright idea of switching majors... LIKE WHAT AM I DOING??


OH WELL YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY YOLO.

And no. Assholes. I'm not going to be in school for seven years and I'm not wasting all of mommy and daddy's money.

NO. NO. NO. THIS IS NOT WHAT IS HAPPENING. 

Yes. This is happening. Going brain dead.

Switching from Public Relations to Media Studies, particularly Media Business and Entrepreneurship, will actually work with more of my transfered credits.

I'm just really, really... REALLY frustrated right now. Temple is different from Champlain... LIKE BY A LOT.

Aggressive.  

What I'm talking about in particular is advisors. At Champlain you had an advisor, at Temple there are just advisors. You meet with any advisor, not one specifically, and you have a quick meeting with them. There really nice and helpful but like lezbehonest, if I'm not in their office all the time they're not going to remember me.

So now, I have to make all these decisions on my own. FABULOUS.
AND APPARENTLY IT'S NOT GETTING DONE TONIGHT.
because I'm going to bed. Early... o wait, NOPE.

After flipping out on my mom, and then talking it over with her calmly, she said it's not worth trying to pin hole myself into a career because that's not going to happen.
Which I never really thought of before.

I'm not becoming a doctor or a teacher. I don't know exactly what I want to be so I might as well just relax.

THEN WHY AM I STILL FLIPPING OUT ?!

it's just really frustrating because all my friends are graduating this month, and I'm like cool.....
Not that I'm not super stoke for them! Because I really am. They've worked so hard and I knew they would do it.

But it's kinda just like ok... meep... I'm switching majors... uh wait wut...

So IDK.

The thing is I just feel like I'm making a huge decision. Which I'm probably not. I'll probably end up in sales, or writing, something having nothing to do with relations or media.

I just don't want to make this decision. I want someone to do it for me. Clearly that's not going to happen so... time to put on big girl pants and dive in to the cold water head first.
Like I said before... Yolo.

ok.

I hope you don't take my use of yolo srsly... 

Bike and Build

A lot of people that I know have been working on, and putting into motion, some seriously cool projects.
As I mentioned a few months ago a couple of my doods started getting together funding for their Mongol Rally endeavor. There project just ended and they were wildly successful.

My dads project is also on the funding website Indiegogo.

And now one of my Besties MISS MELANIE HESS is working on a project! Melanie has been raising funding for a while and I've been meaning to endorse it SO I AM NOW

CHECK OUT THIS LINK

Mel is going to bike across country but she needs your help! Check out her project! It's super unique and is going to be quite a life changing joruney for her!
Mel's no stranger to adventure.

She is going to do fabulous on this exciting trip. I wish her the best of luck and I hope you will support her!

Also another project I want to mention real quick if youre in the Philly area, or even if you're not is Brian walkers new album! Check it out if you have the chance!


Major props to all these people who are out there putting their ideas and goals into action. I salute you.
May the odds be ever in your favor


Xoxo#groundedbyglitter

Send Me to the Bunker

In the past week there have been far too many casualties. 

I am no longer worried about foreign nations-
*side note: I had a major freak out when I heard about North Korea announcing it was set and ready to attack America. Like a major freak out.
I was in my night class and was totally tuned out the whole class, blindly taking notes, not focusing on anything but news articles. Luckily, I have well educated family members who quickly made me rethink the possibility of North Korea actually trying to come at the US of A.

However, I am worried about these explosions.

First, there was Boston. Now, Texas.
From what I'm gathering they're two very different events. Boston was a direct attack, no one identified yet, and Texas was a fertilizer plant explosion.

Like how am I suppose to go on just living my life when all of these crazy things are happening?!!

The other thing, that I believe is a factor, is that this seems to be becoming a trend. Obviously the number of shootings has greatly increased, aduh. I believe in the good of people so much but all of these things happening has to be fueling some crazy people, adding fuel to the fire.

AGH this all needs to stop.

It also stresses me out because I'm not constantly with the people I love.
I'm away from the majority of my friends, who are in Burlington, I have a best friend in New York, Panama, California, and Ohio just to name a few.

If anything should ever happen to any of these people or towns IDK WHAT I WOULD DO.

#thanksobama

Ok it's time for me to go to sleep now.

Internal Conflict

I've been having this internal conflict, sort of like the one expressed in Crossroads.

What's to come.

I was just talking to my soul sister @efauxfox and I was able to sum it up in words.

I'm not worried about myself, I'm on a good path. I'm just not sure where I am going...




I don't know if PR is my path. 
And I don't know what I'm doing with my life.

I think it's extremely important, in the day and age, to have a degree. I'm more than half way through getting mine so I'm not going to switch majors now but I just don't know if I can see my self in this field forever.

If I could do anything I would go into film. My first major in college was Digital Film but I quickly realized it was unrealistic. Being in the film industry takes a lot of effort and passion. Although I do feel film is my passion, I love being able to tune out and watch a movie rather than having to over analyze it. Movies are never something I would want to get tired of so I'm staying away from that.



I was thinking about all of this while I was at the movie The Place Beyond the Pines, yesterday.
I liked it a lot. Parts of it were overly developed, yet you were still left asking questions.
It was very unique though and of course my boyfriend gave a knock out preformance #ryangosling

omg. I die.

I love being creative, which is part of the reason I chose PR. You can put a lot of yourself into campaigns, sometimes. I love writing but I don't know if I could make a real career out of it.

Something else, both Emma and I are passionate about, is spirituality. I would love to develop my intuition. Some people may find that funny but I take it very seriously and I feel sorry for you if you can't tap into it.

I love chakras, the mind and soul. I would love to explore that.
I've come to my own conclusions about my beliefs from the people I've met, things I have heard, and places I've had to get through. I don't really associate with organized religion but I love the concepts.

I'm just scared of being stuck in an office that I hate. I feel like I have time now to figure it all out so I'm not getting super stressed out about it
but I just ~wonder~

Where will I be in 5 years? Will I even have a career? Will I have a baby? Will I still be in recovery?

If you don't know what your doing with your life are you doing something wrong? Or are you on the right path?

Questioning everything is imporatant. There's nothing that irks me more than blind belief.

Question everything. 

Ultimately I will find my way, until then I'll just work on today.

A Quick Thanks.

Ok soOoOo

I was just reading through my blog, particularly the posts from last April- I AM NOT TRYING TO MAKE YOU GO LOOK AT THEM-- IN FACT PLEASE DON'T.
And I've concluded: they are absolutely horrible and I can't believe I ever posted them to the internet.

I said this a couple of postings ago, and I'm saying it again,  I know I have quite a few readers. It's not like a bagillion people know what FuckYab is, but I'd say a good number do. I know this from looking at my blogger stats and through word of mouth. Last month I had over 1,000 views! and every time I go to Burlington at least one person says something to me about what I write.

But here's the thing... 

You must all think I am fucking bat shit.

I just want to publicly apologize for some of these posts, because they are fucking terrible, and I want to thank you all who are still reading.

Some of the best people are fucking nuts:

Sometimes I think that my writing has gotten worse since I've stopped smoking weed and gotten sober. After this recent proof reading... I'm seriously rethinking how substances effected my writing.

I mean I guess the thing with this blog is that sometimes I put serious thought, care, and time into a post and sometimes I just fucking wing it.

Winging it.... ehHhHhHh....

I also am being very harsh on myself because April 2012 was probably the worst time of my life. Mentally I was not right, which would obviously be projected in my writing, or lack there of.

Real talk though: I am bat shit.

So as embarrassing as it is when I read these over and think WTF YAB?!
At least I am always being honest...

As a wise artist once said,
"She's just being Miley."








wait wut...







So, I stay loud, crazy, and level head...
#GroundedByGlitter

Smoke Kitchen

Both of my parents cook, which is where I get my skillz from, but one of them does it for a living.
A lot of people know my father as Chef.
He's cooked in the kitchen of restaurants, run the kitchen, and even been a cooking instructor.

For as long as I can remember my dad has talked about opening a food place of his own. Over the years the ideas have changed and developed. I remember when I was little talk of a bar/ laundormat, very cool concept.

Finally my dad, Chef Latona, has figured out what he wants to open.

Smoke Kitchen.

Smoke Kitchen is going to be the place to get your rotisserie chicken (if you're in the philadelphia suburbs). Like any great chicken place, there will also be killer chicken sandwiches, salads, and beautiful seasonal veggie side dishes!

"WHY- Everything we do is from a passion and love for food. We truly believe in a hand crafted flavorful product and the challenge of creating great food that is accessible to all. We know wood fired rotisserie chicken cooked by people with passion is the best thing you will taste- just like the food your Mom or Grandmother or Dad or Grandfather made you because they and we cook with love and the idea of nurturing those we care for. 

HOW- Hand crafted food cooked by highly trained chefs with total respect for the best products that we can find. Procuring free range chickens and local vegetables and then turning these items into simple wonderful wood fired dishes that you will want to eat everyday. The way to translate this love of nurturing and giving everyone really good flavorful food means that they will have a new and lasting food memory.

WHAT- We make damn good slow cooked rotisserie chicken, that is good for you and your family! We believe in hand made ("Fatto A Mano") vegetable side dishes based on locally sourced and seasonal availability. We craft products like pickles, house made tomato sauce, berry compotes and more to sell too."

If you're into food, especially chicken, you can support this project!

http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/smoke-kitchen

Also follow them on twitter @smokekitchen 

and like the smoke kitchen fb page!