The end... is not as near as I thought

2012 it's time to say good bye.

This year for me, Yab, was possibly the most difficult year of my life, thus far.

I've dealt with a whole mess of shit that I never imagined happening to me, ever.
I went from living on my own dime to living back at my parents house. From full time employee and college drop out, to part time student with no job.
And, of course, I went from sane to psychotic.
Well, I've never actually been sane, so...ya kna


2012 changed my life. 

It was horrible, and important.

There was pain and misery, times like 100.
Like realizing I had to move on from the love of my life. Burlington.
O0oO Burlington.
Your the bitch I hate to love, and always will.

There were also those rare break through moments... Like realizing my potential.
Coming to terms with who I am and actually trying to deal with it. Letting people help me, help myself.
And getting rid of the negativity that engulfed me for so long.

I should have known 2012 was going to be absolutely insane. Last year my new years was crazy.
I drank too much, kissed to many boys, and smoked too much pot.

2013 however, will be rung in the perfect fashion. Dainty and dignified.
It is upsetting that there will be no champagne for me, BUT HEY I think there may be fro yo ;)
I'm siked to see what you bring to me baby new year. I'm praying things change, for the better.

Good bye 2012. And finally, a big Fuck You to you too.

Good Evening Mortals.

Well, just a few more hours till dooms day. Hope you've been YOLOing the shit out of your day.

As the hours draw near to the New World Order, Zombies, Satan's coming, The four horsemen from revelations   and all that holy being destroyed.

Here's a playlist put together by myself, and the dear Miss Melissa Turner.

Good luck my friends, may the odds be ever in your favor. 

Let the Rapture Games begin. 

Merry Wishlist

Deck the halls with lots of present Fa lA lAa La LAA la La lA LA

The count down has begun.


Yab's wishlist for 2012: 
all the pictures are links fyi

Pink Accessories has an amazing selection of jewelry:

 And my new favorite place to shop is Etsy, so many unique and great finds, all of the following are from Etsy:

This I want super bad, if I don't see it under the tree I'm using my christmas money to gift it to myself. 

Nastygal.com has awesome stuff, including these two bags I need:

This Beach Babe texturizing spray is an easy stocking stuffer found right at CVS,

These I just think are too cute, 

AND FINALLY I want to shit glitter.

@bertatas told me about this new pill that makes you literally poop glitter.

and for a measly $425 who wouldn't want to purchase? Glitter please. 

Let the Countdown Begin

So the holidays are here and I am blessed with so much cheer~
I have the bestest friends near and far and now that the holidays are here some of them will be closer to me for playtime! Including my best panda friend @megmcd

And one of my favorite friends has been sending me letters because she is a regular misses clause:

She even made me an advent calendar. Everyday is a picture of one of my best friends and memories. 

Just a little holiday cheer from last years festivies,

Holiday Hit List

It's that time of year again, THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF YEAR.

And I will be writing many a christmas specials into the new years, so stay tuned.

But I want to start off with this:

MACKLEMORE

My latest obsession. I'm a little late getting on the Macklemore and Ryan Lewis train, but I also know there are plenty of people out there who haven't heard of them.
Macklemore, or Ben Haggerty, is a rapper hailing from Seattle and Ryan makes his beats.
There an amazzzing duo and I can't stop listening to their album The Heist.

You may have heard this ditty,

Also there videos are pretty hilarious.

Tip: Macklemore & Ryan Lewis pandora station is killer. It's an amazing variation including Swedish House Mafia, Atmosphere, M83 just to name a few.


Also Ke$ha's new album, Warrior, is pretty dope. It has a song featuring Iggy Pop... so how could it really be bad?

And finally for my pop loving ladys, and fellas,  I have this song that I'm obsessed with that I heard while watching the credits for the movie What's Your Number?

Ps. This movie, What's Your Number? was absolutely hysterical. 

It's about a girl, Anna Farris, who thinks shes slept with too many many guys, so she goes back to everyone of them basically trying to marry one of them.

Her number is 20. I think this may make some of my readers a little nervous about there own numbers... 

If you don't take Anna Farris seriously as an actress you can go fuck yourself because she's a hoot. And you've obviously never seen Smiley Face. 

And Chris Evans is hot, hot, HOT. 

But obviously it's an adorable, funny, girly CHICK FLICK. 

and the ending is obvious and sweet. 

Hope you like it ;)

xoxo Happy Holidays 

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The New World Order. 2012 update.

As all of you well read, readers of mine know, I kinda sorta DEFINITELY feel the end is near.
I think if I were old enough to be effected by y2k I would have feared that too and all other pre-apocalyptic theories that pass by with... well nothing happening.
However, I just feel it in my bones that something is about to happen. 19 days until December 21.

My fears about the new world order have been pretty on the down low, that is until my fabulous younger brother Mr. Liam Casey, decided to tell me about the illuminati. Which involves Jay-z, Beyonce, Lady Gaga, Tyler the creator, and other huge celebs of our mass media filled society.

And all my Rihanna lady lovers check this out !

I tried to watch some videos on it on youtube, including:

Honestly, there really long videos and they just sound like they come from people who believe in conspiracy theories and aren't giving me real facts. 

So I went to the most reliable resource, wikipedia. 

Basically the illuminati is a secret organization. Controlled by big money makers. They want to start the new world order, which is basically just a one world nation, all ruled under this organization. 

Some people say that events such as 9/11 are controlled by this organization. 

I don't know about all this...

My question is like what are they gonna do? Like it's also tied in with satanism, which I feel is a whole other issue... but I guess not really. 

So these people are going to have an antichrist and bring the world to a new order. 

This is the alleged goal.

I look around everyday and I see God more than I see evil. 

I see lives being lived. Yes, there's so much struggle and hardship but we slave away for what we want to have.

The only way someone is going to take over this country is by blindly leading our youth, in my opinion. 

I say bring it on bitches. 2012. I WILL SURVIVE. 

Just one shot. Of honesty, please.

So a lot of the time I write in my head. I compose pages that half the time don't make it to the page. I tried to capture this but it's not super eloquent.

It's not for anyone particularly, although it definitely might seem like it is. And maybe it is. 

I hope you like it. If you don't refer to the blog title.

Can we talk? Just for a minute. 

Let’s go into another room, or just the empty side of the bar.

I don’t really want to talk, honestly. I want a shot. From you.

This is really hard for me. 

I just want to touch your face. I miss your embrace, holding hands.

Being friends. Not enemies.

Lying next to each other in my bed, watching TV or some stupid movie, anything so you could get close to me. 

This sounds lame...

The first time I said this in my head, it was right, but when I try to write it’s not the same.

I miss being your friend. Everything changed when I came to your bed. We don’t even talk anymore, not friends. All communication has come to an end. 

I don’t want to talk honestly. I want a shot. I need the warmth. 

Bartender, please.

I need to be real. 

I want to hold your hand. Touch your face, be your friend. 

I said all that already... 

I miss our familiarity. 

Cause not talking to you kills a piece of me. The happiest piece. 

I feel so awkward these days, not just around you. Losing you has consumed me. Nothing it easy. Your were so much a part of me, without even knowing it. 

And now your gone.

I need a shot. 

Whiskey. 

I’ll make more sense then.

Otherwise, it’s pretend. 

~shot received.

Darling please, come back to me. Let me be your favorite girl-that's-a-friend. 

Nothing more. 

I’ll put my feelings away, to be your pal again. To play around, to laugh and pretend. 

I love you so much. I care for you. I always have and always will. 

You’ll always mean the world to me. Even when you’ve thrown me away, it seems...

One more whiskey, please. 

My speech may slur, but my doubt is gone. I swear I’ll leave my clothes on. 

Can we laugh? Can we joke? 

How bout a line of coke? To far?

Nows your turn. Talk to me. Cause honestly it’s killing me. 

I want to know. 

Wait. 

One more shot. 

Ok, I’m good. I’m perfect now. 

So tell me all...   

Do you think we had a rise and fall? Is it my fault it all came to an end? 

When the kissing started did the friendship end? Did I judge you wrong as my best friend. 

I feel like it’s all my fault we can’t laugh. 

None of this is a joke. 

I was serious about the coke. 

Please laugh with me. Don’t set me up to fail. 

I just told you I loved you, not like you didn't know.

 Do you at all feel the same? 

Ok

So here’s the deal, I’m leaving the door open and walking away. 

Put me in your pocket for a rainy day. Love me forever, if only in the back of your mind. Even it’s just because I said you had to in my pathetic rhyme. 

Take my love and grow. Go on to new places. Seriously go. 

Don’t forget me darling. Remember my name, my face, my heart.

Mr Bartender. Last shot please. 

This one’s just for me. 

 

xoxo. G.