I have this idea...

So like you know when all the corporations took over, and now we have all this debt...
And we really, honestly, don't know what to do. Especially as 20somethings...














Well here's what I think,

As much as I would love to pick up and move camp into canada or like fucking italy, I think we need to fix the problems causing these leaks.

We need to use our youth, to our advantage.

I believe in this.  

Say fuck you to someone. Not to yourself, and your country. 

The world AS WE KNOW IT is foreseen to change as we know it...
Why don't we use that slogan BE THE CHANGE as the change.
and I'm not fucking saying "omg vote for obama! yay change ! woo woo"

no. no.

Stop occupying wall street and get a book or go do some research on the internet. And for those of you too preoccupied to watch the news... or gather information... Congrats. Your ruining your own country.

“At birth we are all born with equal opportunity.”

If you seek out that opportunity, and not occupy, you will find what you want. 

#stopwallstreet #startDC

I want children to be able to go to public school and not see violence, drugs, and sex- 

by the time they are fucking 13, or younger

Put down the bong, get out a book.

I need to see something happen, because I'm starting to give up on America.

But I need your help!

IDK WHAT THE FUCK TO DO ABOUT THIS!



if your still reading this, then you understand how social media can make a change. So what the fuck are you going to do about it?

Let me know your thoughts...

I mean maybe I'm crazy! Maybe wanting to see the economy in a better condition is nuts, maybe cleaning up trash in my own room and out on the streets is fucked up, maybe trying to do something with my life- verses crying about it-, is nuts.
So then, fucking call me crazy. Idgaf. 

Call me crazy. Call me, maybe?

If you have my number call me. Or ask for it and I’ll give it to you. 

Seriously, tell me what to do. Or I’ll fucking tell you.

Young, old, lesbian, gay, straight, Near, far. 

If not Vote for me, Read for you. 

#read

Stop talking about your bullshit problems to people who don’t care, or spreading peoples bullshit problems you shouldn’t have time for. That’s when you play the video games. 

And get the iPhone!

FUCK YAB GET THE iPhone TOMORRROWWW!!

Time for the take over. 

This is more than just me and you. 

This is what I want for the future. 

For you. 

For me. 

For FUCKING AMURICA. 

fuckTHE CORPORATIONS. 


#420. 
Sweet Mary Jane. 
April 20, 2012 could possibly be a huge day for America. 
I mean it's definitely going to be a big day in #btv. So why not we all just light up for a day and paint and hold hands and put up stickers? Who doesn't wanna do that?!?!?
And I know my girls across the globe will be doing the same.
All the way down to Tanzania. @navillusssej

FUCK YAB. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. 

Let your freak flag wave with pride. 

Be the change, You want to BE. 

If we all try to fix what’s wrong with ourselves,

then we can see the change that needs to happen. 

The world is predicted to: End, as we know it. 

By way more than just the mayan calendar...

Well then bring on the chaos.

#stopkony

I do not want to see zombies in 2012. I want to see something happen. 

That starts with you. 

La Ve Boheme

I secretly love showtunes. Deal wit it.

I also love glam rock.

And moving female vocalists.

hahahahaha.

I've gotten rid of a lot of things, in my moving process.
I just fully moved out of one apartment, and into a permant home- fingers crossed.

I have found, with time and patience, things are gliding right into place.
I have gotten rid of all the thing making me unhappy.
Now, I'm finding what I really want and what I really love doing.

I feel like a clock that's been fixed. Or a glove- sewed back together. Ouf.

OMG SPEAKING OF,

while home I watched this amazzziingg movie... Hugo.

I, myself, ME, almost did not watch this movie- but I am soo glad I did.
I really wish they had named it something else, cause the name just does.not. fit.

Ok, so here's what its about.

Life. lol. and clocks, and having- and find- a purpose in life.
Everything has a purpose.
Things do happen for a reason- it's basic science.

It's all connected.

Luck of the Irish

As luck would have it it's St. Patty's day, and now I live down town.
Well great, cause now it's 2:11 am and I can't sleep because it's the day to drink.

As my dear homies are in Ireland, this drinking day will go out to you my loved ones.

If you can't be with the ones you love, love the ones your with

Why I’m Not Good at Traveling

If only I could take a full body selfie right now.
I look like death and I’ve been awake since 7am.
Talk about #ugh.

I love to travel. Like love, love, love it.
Even just thinking about going somewhere gives me an adrenaline rush.

But I have anxiety, like real bad.
On the way over to my 9:00am train reservation, this morning, my anxiety was definitely giving @alishadurgin anxiety.


I’ve been in cars, planes, trains, boats, buses, pretty much any medium of travel my whole life. I’m a vagabond by nature. I grew up in two separate households...
Obviously, I’m use to being on the move.

While actually in the process of being transported from one place to the other, I am always on edge. There are 100 different things that could go wrong that are going through my head.




I realize this is not exactly healthy.

It is something instilled from me from my mother, as most qualities are.
If I am flying somewhere, with or without my mom, I will be at the airport atleast three hours early. Why? BECAUSE SOMETHING COULD GO WRONG!

But I've gotten to the point where I can deal with it.

If I'm going to be on the train, I'm going to have movies and books. It's a long train ride, and you can't count on wi-fi. And I've learned from the best to bring snacks.

If I'm going to be driving back, I'm not going to be with someone who is complaining. Positive things happen to postive people. Hate me if you want me, but not because I'm not nice to you.
And expect an ear full. I'm sorry, I like to talk. 

People fascinate me. 
But I can shut up, too.

I actually love long times of transportation. It's a time in between. Quite literally, your going from one place to another. In any sense.

If I love you, you will know it. If I am mad at you, you will know it. If I am trying to get a point across to you, eventually, you will get it. Whether you like the way I say things or not, that's up to you.

I've been told I have an abrupt nature.
ya? DEAL WITH IT.
I'm pretty positive that's one thing that's not going anywhere.

Adele mood. 

That Time of the Month

"I'M BLEEDING!"
Once a month, you will hear me shout this at some point, somewhere around Burlington. Boy beware.

LOOK OUT!

I'm 21 years old and I still fucking hate, and can hardly deal with, my period. 

So here it is folks, the period special.


~DUN, DUN, DUNNN~

Men, just go the fuck away, first and foremost. This wasn't meant for you to read and you won't get it anyway.
Don't even fucking think about saying anything negative to me, or anything at all for that matter, about this piece. Cause i'll rip your fucking dick off.  And while were at it- you've probaly been told before, but i'll say it again- don't ever say "are you on your period?"
If you're serious or not I don't give a fuck. It's none of your goddamn business. The second you start bleeding for several days then you can tell me how to live my life, until then... go fuck yourself.


So here it is, my period piece.
How to survive your period. At 20 something. 

What not to do: 
Freak out. Remember that being on your period is not actually real life.

What not to watch:
Ok, so there was the incident. That most of you, especially you avid readers, know about. Watching the movie Like Crazy sent me into a serious tizzy while on my period. Seriously. Just don't.
And I thought that maybe I was ready to embark on this journey again, while I was home this week over break, wrong. I ended up watching Like Crazy with my mom after sushi, facing a bottle of cupcake wine, and then puking it all up while my brother made fun of me. DO NOT WATCH THIS MOVIE. Unless you like, emotionally stable, whatever the fuck that means.
Some other no-go's include One Day and Blue Valentine.

What to do:
Get the heating pad out and don't fucking move. If you don't have to do anything, fucking don't. I just try to read and blog and let it all out, figuratively- and literally.

What to watch:
Action, blood, sass, and maybe some sex- since you really can't have any.
All ya need right now.
Drive, you'll feel comfortable, with all the bloooood. And it's fucking amazing, probs to @alishadurgin for getting me on the Drive train. And who doesn't want to watch the sexiest man alive, like, whenever?
the angel movies, cause who doesn't love them, and there sas will match your while perioding, fer sure.

Good and bad foods?
Cosmo lays it all out. It's true though, what you put into your body obviously has major effects on how you feel. So eat shitty, feel even shitter while period-ing.

Ok so while I'm all periody and emotional, check out this adorable blog. The HeartBreak Project.

It's a perfect place to go and read stories to make you cry and get all emotional. It's also a great place to vent.













And just remember:

I'm Not Very Political BUT

Ok, for a long time I have tried to not get publicly involved with politics, but lez be honest...

It's 2012. In December our world, as we know it, is going to change...

by November we will have a new president here in the US, so that means this year will be even more chaotic then the Mayans planned.  

So, listen...
here's all I have to say on my public blog-

If you don't know what your talking about [politically] shut the fuck up, please. Your making me frustrated and I'm not going to fight with you. Stop wasting oxygen.

And if you do know what your talking about, communicate it well or just stop. Your not helping.  

And as great as I think that the Kony2012 movement is, that's foreign policy, and we just got our soldiers out of a very long war. 
And I do not want to see that happen again, but that's what I want. 
Judge me if you want, but when my brother heads to military school I expect it to not be the end of his life. 
And I do support the Invisible Children movement, but I see bigger issues relevant to my direct life right meow, like who the fuck will be running my country?
 
So, if you are of the voting age... EDUCATE YOURSELF.

Figure out what you want in your political leader, and who can make that happen.
Make sure you aren't being sold, or buying into, a puppet.
Don't blindly take facts, make sure you know where the information your reading is coming from. This can be like really difficult.

Project Vote Smart is one place you can look, but don't trust me do your own research. 








Don't let others sway you, make your own opinions, break away from your parents and find your own beliefs.

 

Do it.

#KONY2012

Let's all stop bitching for 30 minutes. 

Kony2012.com

Use your super socialmedia powers for good kidies, and share the fuck out of this one. 

That Guy.

Every girl, has had that guy(s), that has made their life hell, in one way or another.

Including me.

It wasn't even like their goal was to make my life hell, but to make their life better through forcing me to go through hell...

Always happy to help. 

And for a long time, I've tried to act like I'm not one of those stupid girls.

"No, I haven't texted them," "no I haven't called him, ok maybe... but only cause he said sorry," or yadayadayada.

And the funny thing is- I'm really not one of those girls. Really. 

But I do put up with this bullshit. All the time.

And the guy who's the worst for me?
My dad.

Sweet right? #daddyissue

I feel bad talking about my personal, personal, life on the internet,
but quite frankly I don't give a damn.

I've been on a huge journey this from last year to this year.
From having to leave a college that I truly loved, to being cut off from my mother and only talking to my father, having my heart broken- in more ways than one, coming to terms with the fact that I'm bipolar, starting a blog, paying for everything ALL BY MYSELF (no mommy and daddy are not helping), being spiritually awaken (whatever that means), making and losing friends,




AND SOMETIMES IT SEEMS LIKE I CAN'T CUT A BREAK.

#ugh.

Truth though:
All of this has made me the person I am today. And I feel better than I have in a very, very long time.

Everyone has there issues. Not having issues, at this point, is an issue.
Some of us work through our problems to move on.
Some people just move on.
And some people pretend to work through their problems but actually just pin point the finger at everyone else and call it a day.

From now on in every aspect of everyday of my life, I am no longer letting anyone, take advantage of me.

you could have caught that. 

So yes, fuck you if you don't, or won't take the time to, get me.


I don't make excuses for people. I judge people based on what I see.
A big quality I feel I have is understanding. I understand that men are stupider than women, I get that.
That is not an excuse for acting like a small child. 

Grow up, or please just get out of my life. 
That one ^, is to all of you.

Freedom

No one can tell you what you can and can not say.

People can try and they will, nearly everyday.

Sometimes youll be wrong, sometimes you will be right.

But sometimes words are too much.
Sometimes actions need to be taken.
And sometimes you will find your in the waiting place.


This is a good time to listen to music, or bake.
or just go on pintrest.


Don't over analyze. It won't help.

It's cheezy but just:

 

or

and worse comes to worse: 

Things will turn out ok in the end.

And if they don't, make the best of it.

Move on. Grow. And love, always.

Whether it's yourself or others, you decide.