Mardi Gras

Mardi Gras is coming up!

 

woo to the hooo

 
And then ! I'm going home for a week!

Cheesteaks, BARS, and philly baby. 

Also my doooggsss.

O, I'm excited.

And the count down is on.
Less than a month- March 16th- is the exact date. That I will be getting the iphone.

I also think I have a few job leads. Welp yess, there we go!

Making strides.

I feel I'm finding peace of mind.

Resolution #12.

Breathe.

Belief

"O everyone believes"
John Mayer said that once, I believe.

I'm meeting with a ~psychic~ wednesday. Stay tuned for more on that...

Excited? Me too.

Srsly?

Pay attention ladies and gentlemen:

Now, I've that had my rants on the doods,
I gotta talk about the bitches.

Obviously, I- Gab/yab/whatever, have run into my fair share of bitches.

 I have my bitches -that I love to death, and would defend to the end. And sometimes you fight with your bitches, but that's different.


I'm referring to:
those bitches.

We're not talking about betches either. I'm talking straight bullshit through, and through.


I've said it once, and I will say it again- I am not a bitch. I am The Bitch.
So please, watch the fuck out.

Some of us grow up.
And some of us don't.
Those of you who don't...
Please stay out of my life. I don't have time.

And do not sit there and put on the innocent act.
Ya, like your not trying to stir up trouble... #please.

If you don't have something nice to say don't say it, at all.

Don't act like you like me, when you don't.
Fuck off.

It's like... 

I got 99 problems, But a bitch ain't. One.

So missy, are we cool? Yes.
Now shut the fuck up. And let's not have this happen again.
Ok? k.

O also Rihanna... seriously?

Drop Chris quicker than his rap game. Cause he aint got none. Or decency. 

Fuck that. 

If you don't? F.Y.I.-your career is dunzo. 

And the duet... um vulgar. Too much. Ew. 

Your suppose to be hating him. Get back to it. 

o and nice cake.

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Ook, so some of you avid readers may have noticed,
Yab's been a litttle behind on her blogging.

(Hey check out my new dermals though...

lol cool. )

Let me tell you why:
just a few reasons,

1. I'm in the process of moving!
Don't worry, though, your favorite Burlington socialite is so totally not leaving the scene.
like I said mama came up and saved the day, and I'm finally moving to a solid place for my life and lifestyle.

My new roommates are my dear friend Joe and DeeOGee.

2. I'm trying to get organized.
I have a lot of ideas for what's to come with FuckYab, but I also just have a millon ideas. I'm getting all my shit together in the moving process and trying to take things one day at a time.

3. Internet connections.
I currently have two Burlington apartments... both of which have no internet at the moment...

4. I still do not have the iPhone.
BUT the count down is on. March 16th is the day I can upgrade.
So once that happens...  
Yab will take over the world. 

#getready.

Aaandd we're back.

Sorry, I've been off air for a while.
I've been hanging out, finding god, tapping into psychic powers, ya know, the typical life.

So ya no. But actually though.
Let me rewind:

I've been working on a million projects this year, and last, and the year before. I broke down finally. My mom came, and we put things back together. Everything. 

AND FINALLY SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE IS FUNNY AGAIN!! YES.

I feel like there has been a huge funk. In all of my familys lives. Since wasy before I was born. But I'm coming to terms with that. Sitcoms are funny again.
 It feels like the good years again.

Is everything about to go to shit? I can't help but not feel calm.

Things seem ok for now. And I think they will be for atleast a little while.

Remember. Stop and appreciate what's around.

There's always hope. Somewhere. Find it. 
 

Something crazy has happened. 
I stopped believing in God, a long time ago. 
I don't remember exactly why. The concept just didn't apply to me. I understood why others needed
G o d. But me. No. I did not need God. 
Pssssshhhh. 
Yea. right.
So, through these past couple of years... As things have gotten worse... and worse, in my life,
I have never looked upward. 
I know I have a serious party problem. #partyproblems- of all kinds. 
That needs to end. 
I need to make more serious choice in my life. I'm starting to get my act together, and loving it.


I've come up with this brillant idea for a support group for 18-20something girls. 
Everyone has their shit. 
Girls, we need to work together. 
It's time to stop hating, it's not funny anymore. Don't you dare through an elbow at me, our I will pin you down until you are calm. 
I'm over it. 

 

Start loving. 

 

If we work together we could move mountains. So let's get our shit together, together.
Because who, is it that, runs the world?
Girls.  

 
Through finally, not staring at the ground, I can finally see what's fully around me. 
That no one has really left me, but I've left people behind. 
I went to the spirit dancer the other day, and got a couple of books. I also spoke to a very nice woman, actually the store owner. 
I'm entering into the school of life. 

It's time to study. 
I have a millon projects, that I will get done. 

So yes, maybe you could say I've found God or Buddha or Her. I see God, whatever that is, as a woman. 
I have had so many influential woman change and improve my life. Why would I not believe in that?

 

So happy ask wednesday all. 
Light it up. And kiss it to the sky. 

O and also, this was just too good. 

Love Of My Life

Bon Iver. 

O yes.
I have loved you a millon times over. 

The summer album... 
Moving forward. Living Life. 

This Girl

I've also thought I was that girl.
That, wasted fucked up beyond belief, girl.

But I've never really been that girl.
















Now, finally, I'm happy with being this girl. Gab.

Catz are cewl.

It's taking a long, long time to become me. 

And I'm so excited to move foward. 




Growing up is hard, but you either do it, or you don't.

If you don't keep moving, you will get left behind. 

I'm moving on. With my life, looks, and behavior.

I've kicked my dirty habits. There will be slip ups in life.
In the wise, wise words of Hannah Montana,  No Body's Perfect. 
But you can only move forward. 

Fuck Valentines day

And I will tell you why:

1 I work in a cupcake shop and
2 I'm single.

All these people in love, buying cupcakes. ugh.
but like you should do that everyday if you love someone...
It's not a real holiday. It's a crock o' shit. 

I don't want to go to work tomorrow.
I want to go home to philadelphia and not be sick.

She's real cute.

My permanent valentine is my mother.
Why? because she is the only one who has given me something nice, year after year. Even if it was just a card.
I love her more than any of you. So HA.


Eh. So maybe not fuck valentines day.
but hay.
I curse a lot. So fuck it. And pass me the chocolate.

Maybe

When I go home maybe I'll go see my old friend, Patti Anne.
I was in the program called adolescent advocates.
I learned a lot about honesty from Patti Anne.

She taught me a lot about myself.
In an abrupt nature, very quickly.

You know that movie Role Models? O no, well go watch it and then read on...
Jane Lynches role in that movie is Patti Anne. I swear to god. She's a riot.

I was a huge bitch before I ever met Patti Anne. And some people think I still am a bitch, so ya know, whatever.
I don't really care anymore.

But it would be nice to stop over. Even though I was a real asshole.
Eeeh....


O while were talking about me being a bitch...

Actually just wait for the next post.

Happy Valentines Day

I've wanted to sit down and think for one second
but nothing comes out.

I think I want to go home. But like, actually though.

Fuck everything.
I'm so stressed out. I have too much shit to do, when I could go home and take a break.
I need a massage, a pedicure, and my horoscope.

Im exhausted. and sick. and tired.
but I slept all day.
uuugghhhh

Someone tell me what to do with my life? Today I cried to mary about life. and how much i miss alli.

I look really pretty when I smile though.

agh. Last night I had a blast. too much fun...
but I'm going to die this year and so are you and the rest of the world.
Acutally probs not, but atleast we will survive.

I can't even move. and I want to talk to everybody and I cant read my text messages so I don't know what the fuck is going on with my life.

I feel like im in a state of panic always, but isn't everyone else too?

I said fuck you to my dad several times yesterday. Sorry.
I'm just really depressed because it's fucking winter one day, and I'm biking in shorts the next day.
Ok, maybe I just shouldn't be doing that...

Friday, after the disappointing showing of The Vow, and after I left a party because I felt like shit, I almost started crying. I was walking around btown not even drunk, watching all the drunk assholes, I fucking miss my friends. Ugh I couldn't even call any of them because all the lines are DEAD.

Smelanie.

Where are all of you? lol

 

Ugh, But I hope all your journeys in life, where ever you may be my friends, that your loving every minute of it. That, or your learning lots.
Love you all.

Aand I only got to see kaitlin for like five minutes. Hey look! atleast stump is back.

Talk about missing friends. Wah. Tockwogh I miss you.

Ugh and then they'll all go abroad. Wah. 

I think the world should really just go away. Because I have my period. and it's fucking Valentine's Day.



I just can't wait to see who comes in for cupcakes today.